One step leads to the next. Usually when we reach for a step we know where our foot will land. I feel like I’m walking out into a thick fog – I can’t quite see where I’m going but it feels like the right direction.
Since 2008 when I folded Bumble Beez Athletics I knew I would want to do it again. Only better. It would be simply foolish to think that my most passionate meaningful work would be over by my mid twenties. For years I’ve been content to learn from my supervisors, my colleagues, and soak up experiences. For these eight years I’ve also been dangling my toes in the vast pool of possibilities. The risks of jumping in the deep end felt far too nebulous.
For two years momentum has been building. One conversation would lead to another. They all kept pointing me towards my foggy future. I started stepping hesitantly and cautiously. Then one serendipitous conversation in July lead me to take a bolder step in September.
It felt daring and brave. I wasn’t sure where it would go. I still don’t.
But I couldn’t be bold and then… just… wait…
So I took a leap. I resigned from my position as the YWCA Women’s Triathlon Assistant Race Director – Training Coordinator. I will still coach and train and teach. But I’ve made a little space for myself to pursue my bigger dreams even as they are still falling into place.